Apr. 15, 2026

I've written about two blog posts over these past few months. I'm not going to post either of them. They are half finished thoughts that were written by a half-functioning brain. I'll probably revisit the subjects of those blog writtings in the future, but I am chosing not to stress about any of that.

I have been spending a lot of time worrying about work and feeling the pressure from my job. Now, my job is a bit stressful. Being the one responsible for many of the IT Networking (and other tech) needs for a non-profit is not the easiest jobs and I have had to develop a lot of skills very quickly that I did not have when I first started. That being said... I have come to realize that a lot of the pressure I have been feeling over the past few months has really come from inside my own head. Anxiety about job performance piled on top of a sense of instability in trying to develop better organizational and time management skills wheighed down on me like tons of bricks. It really seemed for a while that I was drowning in work, and the only way I could get out was by doing more work. Well. I can now say that I have seen how badly all of that self-imposed worry and stress affects me and makes me miserable. The thing I have been working on lately is finding more of a balance between a carefree attitude where nothing matters, and that insane pressure I put myself under that crushes instead of forming diamond. While my commute makes it extremely hard, I am trying to find more time for myself and leaving work at work. It doesn't always happen. But I am trying to give myself more wiggle room so I don't wind up suffocating.

All of this is to say to you, the reader, and to remind myself. You need to take care of yourself, too.